25 October 2005

Spooked

So my Hallowe'en costume arrived. Well in time, and yey it fits. It would even fit if I were a little bigger so my fears on that one were unfounded. Not sure how I'll serve pints with the sleeves, but we'll see on that one. Aw seriously it looks awesome on. I'm gonna get a black wig like the one in the picture too. I'm having issues with the pub* at the moment, not least because I need my Sunday nights out at Mardis Gras but also had a few issues with flirting, or not feeling like I can anymore. I feel false flirting with guys when I'm not in the slightest bit interested in any of them. Also I had an awful nightmare involving the place that's made me scared to even walk through the door of the place. Hopefully should be able to make the Sunday night out, even if (all else failing) I have to go out later on.

*I hate working in such a straight place and generally I'm unhappy being back, the nightmare just compounded everything and made me realise it's really not for me. Problem is I hate letting people down and there have been loads of problems lately that Tony and Cath have had to deal with, and I don't wanna dump another one on them. Damn I'm in a dilema. I don't wanna upset anyone, but I don't wanna be unhappy. Grr

5 Comments:

Blogger Icciv said...

If it's making you feel bad and you don't need the job then maybe you should leave. You shouldn't dread going to work anyway. I know it's easy to feel obligated (thats what Japan is all about!) but you have to prioritize yourself sometimes. Just explain you have too much on with two jobs and you have to let this one go...but if they are ever in dire need of staff you would be willing to help. Anyway, hope you figuer it out.

Vicky

2:01 am  
Blogger Ally said...

I think Vicky is probably right as far as the pub job goes. Don't make other peole happy at the expense of yourself.

But also, I don't think you should feel bad flirting with guys when you're working there - I guess it's kind of part of the job and they pretty much don't expect it to go anywhere? I had this conversation with our New Polish Lodger a couple of days ago - she's been working in the pub for a week and has already been asked out twice :).

7:57 am  
Blogger Sazzle said...

Yeh I guess you're right about the flirting thing. The weird thing was I used to get a huge buzz out of flirting with the guys in the pub. Anyway Yeh I'll probably end up quitting sooner rather than later, just hate leaving them in the s**t coz I've worked there so long they're kinda like my family.

9:02 am  
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9:59 am  
Blogger Rhys said...

Sorry hunnie but I'm having trouble picturing you in that costume, pictures need to be taken!

And don't worry about the job, I know the last thing you want at the moment is another man in your life, but try not let it affect your job. You don't scream "lesbian" to me hunnie, so I'm sure a lot of other people feel the same. Just put on a brave face for the time being.

Of course, if that's not your only problem, quit the job. Not sure of your financial situation, but I should think it's not horrendous.

10:01 am  

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